sigh, i really really need a gf now.. i dont have any besties. my life's not complete without one.. a girl is still a girl who needs best buds. sighhh.. i mean sch's great, i have ppl to hang out with, but we stop at being schmates tts it. Now, i come home, all bored and alone. Going online to see if anyone's there. i dont have the heart to start on my work without relaxing and talking to someone. its not like sec sch, when i get filled up everyday by da noisomez, we spend half a day together always. we go home and we just spend the few hrs studying before seeing each other again. so u see, back then i was coping with triple sci, double maths and all but we have each other.. i bet if we were all in the same jc, same class, things will be working out fine though sch's tough.
now, i live so far away, i walk and sit thru the one hour busride alone, come back home, no one really talks to me, everyone's busy... sigh. much as im having a new lifestyle now, i realised i've gotta keep the olds. i need the things that once kept me going. its in the nights, that truely reflects on what you have in your life. dan's been great, he has been there with me when sch was bad, the transition process and all.. but, he's busy, he's gonna get busier, me? i think sch wld continue to be slack and slacker in year2. considering i'll be studying in 1st sem and doing gym attachment in the 2nd sem. i know i cant expect him to be there always, tho i know i wished he could too. i just need a good pal la, girl preferbly, guys.. can la, but they dont last so whats the point. i dont really have that much to live for nowadays. its kinda so lonely? all i need is someone comfortable to talk crap with, utter rubbish for hours, make tt person laugh, im positively rusty in this aspect. its just so sad now. =(