I guess from the whole time i went through the fall, sprained my ankle, rested at home and still am resting at home, its been time well spent and i never really got that kinda anger of being injuried just when i was starting to play better. I guess most of the time it was just acceptance and wondering why.
Anyway, it was well-timed, when things around me seemed to be getting distant, instead of bringing me down even further, it sort of got things better... I was getting really distant from my family and i've been trying to bridge the gap as hard as i could. The first night was bad though, my mum didnt understand alot of stuff bout ankle sprains and out of frustration she said some stuff which hurt, felt like no one in the world cared then, but that was the only incident after that, it was her taking care of me that didnt make the injury seem so bad. Frequent trips to the doc were made by her and my dad taking time off from work to drive me there, her waiting with me and accompanying me back home again. Well at least, this way they are seeing alot of me now.
That night, i learnt to let go of what was and get strong for what is. I guess at that point, my rs with dan needed a break. I hung on to 'was' and got to a point where i needed a break from all the hurt. I needed to start thinking for myself. Things were doing well the past few days, being away from all the expectations and burden. But i knew i screwed it today, i hurt him. Sigh, for that, i know its my fault and im very sorry. Where will we go from here?
Friends, were there, that im very grateful. Moon smsed with a scream, scolding me for not telling her.. haha, she made me smile.. saw serene at the polyclinic who told nikki and she came to me with a scream too. Surean offered to drive me to sch, though i cant even walk, thanks pal. Constant msging came from sha, dan, jed, gerald and kal. Lots more well wishers that got me smiling. And to stella too, who also got a concussion on her head from netball practise the same night i got mine and who's also on a long long mc like me, GET WELL SOON TOO! haha both of us abandoned the bodywatch grp this whole week.