Its so strange how things work out isnt it? I would always always be amused by this fact. How i try so hard and so long to stop the one thing that im so afraid of and it still comes. Guess i kinda realised i was fighting the hands of God. And i knew it, cause, seriously i wasnt made to be in pain half the time i was awake. Now, all i would do is to shrug my shoulders, lift my hands up in defeat and go with memories laid to rest.
So new life comes in... Its been so good around here and im strangely at peace. There are a thousand and one things that i want to do with my time and two thirds of them would probably involve getting out of the comfort zone. Studies are pretty much not involve in the equation but hey, its the whole reason why i get the chance to be here so im trying my best to work at it. With the great outdoors in my backyard, like it has never been before, i think im gonna get a little crazy here. Also, with housemates like mine living in the same space that i am, whew, i love coming home to them. The front doors are never locked and i know for sure that they will be in there on the couches, greeting you with cheeky grins and an invitation to party. I've always had a fear of the caucasians but they're the very first kids i've met that have the ability to crack me up all the time. I love my room and my roommate, i love the roof where i can see my church right up on the hill, i love that bike rides to school aint that complicated and that the bus is right at the doorstep. Im settling right in...
Not all is gonna be fine and dandy though, things are gonna change in two months. I've got to move out of this place cause my lease is up, the americans are going home and i got this whole task of finding a new home that would suit me and moving my things. Im seriously considering if i should move into derek's place, i have no idea how it will be like but its comforting to know that he can help me out with physio stuff and christian life. Then again, i can always stay at 77sfs in a single room or just find a new place with new people.. Tough decisions.
Apparently, my fears of becoming chubby and plain looking can be shelved for the moment. I've gotten three compliments two days in a row and im bowled over. I've been feeling like i can never quite catch anyone's attention and i'll bore the death out of people by my inability to make conversations. Hmm... I know, i know, im working on it...
Okay, i've got alot more on my mind.. But i'll save it up for tomorrow. Im definitely gonna write one then cause.. well u'll find out!