i think i cant count on my hand the no. of people i've left out in my life the past few months. the older i get, the more people i meet and the more i wished i had a way to include and update them on whats happening in my life. I know what they mean by not catching up quite enough.. Physio has been a good and bad thing for me and for one it takes me away from many people around me due to its workload but the Youth Fellowship in church has also lead me through the difficult questions that i've faced in regards to continuing physio and i pray that through the many years i have ahead that God will send groups and people like that who will constantly be there to encourage and to listen to the worries that i have.
Its good to be standing here at this point with exams done and a year worth of knowledge to process. Im much less occupied and im praying that i'll start having the heart to want to know about God's word. My life isnt complicated, its just to do mainly with the paths that i hope to take in future and for dreams that i hope will be set into place.. Like how i've always came to physio with the fact in mind that i want to serve others who hasnt been as blessed as me and to be used as a motion to show God's love to them... Its one of the many things i hope to do and hope i will not fall away from. On the other hand, im also really caught up in wanting a life spent in the outdoors, something i've always wanted to do but found that it wasnt a practical thing to consider in singapore. now that im here, its been a constant wanting to spend all my time learning the ways of nature.. (i was contemplating switching to ecology) but yeah, i guess this debate will still stand for a huge part of my life so i'll pray for wisdom in wanting to make decisions based on what God wants me to do in his plans.
I've been very much loved here by many. Where i thought i was happy in singapore, its brisbane where i flourished and grew and grew emotionally. There are a whole load of people that probably stayed for a short part of my life but for which i have a lifetime worth of thank yous for them. Im heading home to singapore soon and there have been people i missed and there are old skeletons in the closet i hate to come back to. But going home its part of yet another lesson that i'll have to take in life, another adjustment i have to make in my heart and the expansion of its depths.
Im not really that hard to talk to... it just takes time on my part and an invite on yours! i'll see you guys soon =)
All for love's sake became poor